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the raptor! [21 Jan 2005|01:41am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

first and foremost i want to apologize to my fellow livejournal friends for neglecting to comment on any recent entries. i will soon, i promise.

my stomach has hurt on and off all day. i didn't remember my dream from last night.

i really love this song by annie lennox. her voice is amazing.

as days go by the more i realize i will ALWAYS like older music better than music of today. overall, that is. i truly love leonard cohen. i meant to go to strawberries today, but i didn't feel good.

i get to blink-sit again soon! february 10, 11 and 12. exciting! i've been writing more lately. just about dreams, but i noticed for awhile that my skills were becoming so basic again, and that saddened me. so i'm gonna try and write everyday again. just start to write and see where it leads me. it's theraputic, really.

me and my mom and lauren watched Lost and Delirious. it wasn't how i thought it would be. i loved it.

i miss my Alice in Chains cd. whatever happend to it?

my mom helped me put my hair into roller tonight while we watched the movie. i didn't even see how she did it, cuz my eyes were glued to the screen... so hopefully i can figure out how to take them out tomorrow, aha.

the only known albino koala in the world exists at the san diego zoo. just take a gander.

albinokoala

tomorrow my family and i are going to the movies to see the Lemony Snicket movie. finally! i'm so excited. i just ate honey out of a spoon.

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"God's in His heaven, All's right with the world." [19 Jan 2005|02:32am]
[ mood | blank ]

my hair looks soo much better parted in the middle.

i can't wait for work tomorrow.

so it's official, ash is coming from february 27th to march 5th. i am so excited!!!!!!!!!

lately i've felt like a bad friend.

these nails are impossible to grow back.

i'm on a diet.

i didn't write about my dream yet today so i will now. i dreampt that me and [myspace]jen were at my house and she busted in on me while i was in the bathroom and about to shower. i was naked and she basically said i was ugly, but then i cried and she said she was only teasing me. then she got naked, and we walked around the house together. then we ended up back in the bathroom. there was nothing sexual about this dream, and you know i would admit if there was. somehow an old lady knocked on the bathroom door and we pretended to be sisters(?), in hopes that she would go away, but she told us we were sick and left regardless. then we went downstairs (still naked) and i remember feeling totally comfortable, it was weird... but nice. then all of a sudden i saw bailey outside. it was freezing and snowing and there was a dog near him on the porch, a beauceron or whatever they're called, the oldest breed of dog in the world ((recorded)). i remember it had big nipples, it actually looked like whatever nursed romulus and remus in that roman statue. exactly like it, really... except living. i remember being afraid it would hurt bailey, but all it wanted was a friend. in a lot of my dreams lately i'm running/driving/being driven away from something. me and jen went somewhere to, to get away, but i don't remember where. it actually might involve those snowy woods i keep dreaming of lately. i remember empty streets and looking at the sky. my dreams lately are so fucked up.

for a fun time, look at my newest blog on myspace.

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now this is art [14 Jan 2005|05:01am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

click it or die

o-zone

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EWE!!!!! [12 Jan 2005|02:55pm]
[ mood | bored ]

"We Don't Live Here Anymore" wasn't very good.

i want to rent more movies. maybe my mom will take me later. mona sucks on ice. i can't go out today. i feel bad... but whatever.

i stayed up all night. i cleaned out my closet. and sorted through my CDs. i put them in alphabetical order. next i'll do my dvds. i might get rid of some, or something. i fell asleep from 10 am to 1:30 pm. people got out of school early. i tried to call the school to say i couldn't pick up kendra and rocco, but since they got out early, they never got it. kendra called me from the school and we had phone-sex.

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black boys with limps and coughing children [12 Jan 2005|01:16am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

i just wrote a whole entry and it got deleted. and i'm annoyed.

i'm over it.

it's kinda weird that i get excited on nights that it's supposed to snow.... not like i can have a snow day, and i really don't wanna have to cancel plans tomorrow cuz of bad weather. guess we'll just have to see.

i got lolita on dvd wicked cheap today at best buy. also a really cheap best of blue oyster cult cd. then me and pam went to the 99 and ate, and after went to barnes and noble and discussed how it's obnoxious when people have to point out how "deep" they are. we also looked at nngows in large picture books.

i feel really fat lately. i have to do something about that.

maybe i should roll another huge snowball in the yard.

i wanna watch my movies.

i think my new years resolution is going over well.

eweie is carrying around her multicolored ball. she wants to play fetch. freak!

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first time this year i've eaten snow [09 Jan 2005|03:19pm]
[ mood | confused ]

why do all but like 5 couples in the world annoy the shit out of me?

last night consisted of


-cranium.
-lindsay chasing me around the house.
-me talking about how i want to be a film critic.
-barnaby being renamed his proper name -- bartelby.
-me being paranoid that ash's birthday was today (yesterday) and not tomorrow (today).
-discovering how thin jetta is.
-me telling my dad i would go to michigan with him today, even though i have NO desire to.
-sledding at 3 am.
-jarred wearing women's pajama pants.
-me stating how i had a "healthy obsession" with lipstick.
-rediscovering nada surf.
-being extremely uncomfortable while sleeping.
-fucked about dreams about lauren driving like a maniac. hookers from the 50s. getting drunk(?) at the sad and having people take advantage of me while i was sleeping and not being able to do anything about it. KENDRA. having a black, longhaired cat that was killed by a dog. futuristic, dump-ish bathrooms. and eating raw donuts.


weird.

oh, and Japanese Story, A Home at the End of the World, Before Sunset, and Gods and Monsters are some of my new favorite movies.
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i love mona! [07 Jan 2005|10:35pm]
[ mood | excited ]

is it normal to get extremely excited about watching the movies you rented alone in your room with your cat?

i should be a film critic.</center>

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shmeh. [07 Jan 2005|01:32am]
[ mood | inspired ]

i don't really hate colin farrell.

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imagine if you ate a blood-filled tick and loved it? [06 Jan 2005|01:02am]
[ mood | good ]

-barnaby
-muerika
-bright orange sweatshirt
-urination
-fuzzy bunny keychain
-mike valente
-trans-gendered
-"fear everything" dinosaur t-shirt
-nacho stew
-stalking
-GRABBY


'nuff said
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i'm not tired anymore [05 Jan 2005|03:55am]
[ mood | awake ]

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
a] Megan
b] Megs
c] Meg

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
a] confucius 0rnis
b] wemolohtrab 117
c] save hyzenthlay

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
a] my nails when they're long
b] my honesty
c] my permanent retainer

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
a] my shape/figure
b] my voice
c] my nose

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
a] scottish
b] german
c] lithuanian


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
a] logan airport
b] being a hypocondriact
c] the future

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
a] lotion and perfume/cologne/body spray
b] my batman watch
c] a necklace of choice & rings

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
a] white shirt that says "megan" on it (made by linzo)
b] black PJ pants with white skulls and crossbones
c] skin color bra

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
a] The Who
b] Tori Amos
c] Smashing Pumpkins

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
a] i don't like mondays by tori amos
b] new year by deathcab for cutie
c] somebody to love by queen

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT
TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
a] a job other than cleaning houses
b] a future
c] a tattoo

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
a] honesty
b] non-corny/fakeness
c] comfort

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
a] i often wish i was a cat
b] i collect lobsters
c] i hook on weekends

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/or same SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
a] lips
b] confidence
c] self conciousness

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
a] be a skank
b] lie
c] like any liquid better than h2o

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
a] cryptozoologing
b] going new places
c] knowledge drain

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
a] walk outside
b] poop
c] wake up and stay up

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
a] barnes and noble person
b] florist?
c] writer

^no fucking clue^

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
a] NORWAY
b] japan
c] scotland

THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE:
a] enzo
b] frances
c] ainsley

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
a] go to at least 3 other countries i've never been to
b] parallel park
c] write stories

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damn bailys [04 Jan 2005|01:06am]
[ mood | eye-pain ]

cranium is the funnest game in existance! and yes, i know funnest is not a word. sue me.
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guess this is what i get [03 Jan 2005|02:21pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

i had really weird dreams last night. part of my dream involved my family coming to visit and then us taking a giant black bus to my grandparents house. but they drove out to our house... only so we could drive back to michigan? and my little twin cousins sat in the WAY back with my grandma, and got mustard all over the seat. i dunno where my grandpa was, or any males for that matter. me and linzo in lauren sat in the middle row, and my mom and aunt sat in the front. we kept passing those giant blow-up snowmen and such and so many were deflated and hanging over dumpsters.

another part of my dream involved me being in collge, but there were no classes, just dorms to live in. i dormed with two girls who were my best friends but i don't remember their names. but for some reason they slept in a bed together and my bed was in the closet. when i first got to the school, for some reason all these girls knew i was gay and made signs that said "dyke" on them in rainbow letters and stuff, and threw them at me, ha. it was really weird. i hit someone over the head. this one girl in particular followed me back to my dorm harrassing me. i thought she was cute, so i attempted to talk to her civily. she had short dirty-blonde hair and wasn't much taller than me. she had a very feminine face. i wasn't phased by any of her insults, and i told her my view about how homophobes are really the biggest homosexuals of all deep-down. that just made her even more nervous and jumpy. she followed me everywhere. even back to my dorm. i went about doing what i would normally do. and when i changed in front of her she wouldn't stop staring at me. i told her it was time for her to go and she asked me why i was being so nice to her when she was being an asshole to me. i said something along the lines of "why not?" and shrugged and she looked really hurt or something. then i got really up in her face and told her goodnight and she leaned forward and kissed me. i think i was expecting that? so i smiled and laughed and then she started to look all nervous again. i just turned around and walked into my bedroom and she followed me, but when we got there she started asking all these questions like what if my room mates wake up and the such and i told her not to worry and then she kissed me again and started to cry. she started whispering "she's a boy, she's a boy", and then she looked in the closet (my bed?) and saw the poster she had made while harrassing me, ha. then she pushed me away and started yelling how i was a lesbian and she wasn't. this of course woke my room mates up and they were trying to calm her down (as was i) but i think i knew that was going to happen. she started to go on and on about how everyone would hate her and disown her and i said "not everyone" and then she ran out of my room and my down and i went to the bathroom and washed me face, and smiled at myself in the mirror... and then i sunk down and sat on the floor and sighed. and then i woke up.

crazy huh?

i have to clean my room. i've concluded that i'm not gonna think about feeling anymore. i'm just gonna take things as they come. no questions ask. trust my instincts.

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orange jewce [03 Jan 2005|01:47am]
[ mood | creative ]

i bought shirts at h&m today. i was gonna buy manga, but i decided i'd wait til i got that gift card thingy and my new sticker from suncoast replay.

i always want people to be honest with me. cuz i always want to be honest with them. i hate lying and i really suck at it.

i am officially in love with my mom's car. i want to name her. let me think. INEZ. it really suits her. take a gander.

inez

just not that color blue. i rented victor/victoria and brazil tonight. i watched the first one, it was good! i don't think i'd own it though. and brazil i started to watch but took a break from it cuz my room got all smokey, but i reaallllly like it so far.

tomorrow i think i work. not sure though. besides that i have not a clue.

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first entry of the new year. yay? [02 Jan 2005|01:58pm]
[ mood | okay ]

New Years was fun. we all played pictionary and madlibs and then went sledding at 2 am (minus bill, who was sleeping).
i made a huge snowball in the yard and it's a lot of fun to lay on, and relaxing.

then yesterday after everyone left me and lauren and ham picked up phil and ashley and we went to blockbuster, and didn't find any movies.
we ended up coming back here and just hung out for a bit, played with cat toys, and then went to taco bell. only lauren and phil got something.
then we stopped at ashleys house and got mac n cheese. on the way home i just drove around for awhile cuz phil had to be home within a half hour. he kept playing with the buttons in the car and the sunroof, which i thought he closed in the end but it was still open this morning, thanks phil!
then we dropped him off and us GIRLS came back to our house so ham could get her purse, then i drove her home.
we got back and i ruined the mac n cheese but my dad fixed it kinda, so we still ate it. then we watched benny & joon and all fell asleep within the first 45 minutes of the movie, ha.

today, so far i've driven ashley home, showered, and uhhh gone on here. soon we're going to the mall, but i dunno if it's gonna be the whole family or just lauren and me. guess we'll find out!

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sweet dream, sweet dream. [31 Dec 2004|02:48pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

01. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
a.) CAME OUT!
b.) told "secrets".
c.) dated.
d.) drank.
e.) kissed someone. sad, i know. among other things.
f.) made true friends.

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i think last year it was to lose weight, which i did. but i'd like to still shape up. and i have to find goals... yeah.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes, amanda, christina, jarred's brother's girlfriend. i think there is someone else... oh well!

04. Did anyone close to you die?
my dog, magpie, was put down.

05. What countries did you visit?
none!

06. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a.) hmm.... more motivation?
b.) a job-job.

07. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory?
like i remember, ha.
a.) june 15... BOBO!
b.) may 21st, linzo and jarred's wedding.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
a.) coming out.
b.) discovering and accepting myself for the first real time.
c.) not being afraid to be me--honesty.
d.) my license!

09. What was your biggest failure?
a.) not having any direction after school.
b.) not winning any of those short-story contests.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
not really. best year ever that-wise.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Erzsebet Thora.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
all of the wonderful friends i have made who have stuck by me and actually cared and been honest with me. and of course, my family... for being so amazing and accepting.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
i've distanced myself from these people.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Erzsebet Thora.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
bobo. getting my licnese/mona.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
anything from The Who's Tommy. i dunno, there are so many.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier!!
b) thinner or fatter? thinner.
c) richer or poorer? richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
hung out with people. saved up money. gone crazy places.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
sitting around. thinking too much.

20. What's one goal you have for the new year?
figure out my future.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
at home, hanging out with friends.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
nope.

23. How many one-night stands?
zero.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAYS! and also The Practice! thanks to law, haha.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
hahahaha, of course. sheesh.

26. What was the best book you read?
best book... that's tough. i should have read more this past year. Like the Red Panda, probably.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
the who, tori amos.... i dunno.... there are so many. rediscovering smashing pumpkins.

28. What did you want and get?
in this year? bobo. friends, real friends. acceptance. understanding. closeness.

29. What did you want and not get?
miniscule things.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Hedwig and the Angry Inch!! or did i watch that last year... if not that, then Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind AND Lost in Translation!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
didn't i have a sleepover? i can't remember. but i turned LEGAL.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
if i wasn't retarded at some points. i would change a lot of things.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
more fitting clothes. green. cool patterns. HATS. rings. batman watch. long/red hair!

34. What kept you sane?
i don't use that term. but friends and family and bobo.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i really like Scarlett Johannsen, but i wouldn't say i "fancy". i don't do that with celebrities.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the answer is in the question.

37. Who did you miss?
old aspects of people. magpie.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
all the friends i have now. i mean, i knew them before, but it took a year like 2004 for us to grow so amazingly close.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
always be yourself and accept and like yourself. because others can't like and accept you before you do this. think before your actions, but don't guilt yourself with regrets. learn and move on. i can't explain, this year was the most amazing of my life for soo many reasons.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Shot full of diamonds
and a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here."

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bite my finger [30 Dec 2004|08:16pm]
[ mood | bloated ]

i went to the science museum with linzo for work today. fi is sick so only joe and his friend taylor went. it was fun! i wanted a pewter heart (organ) keychain, but it was too costly. me and lindsay talked a good amount and it was good. joe is insane. his parents are whacko. i have to pee.

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PINK DOUCHES [29 Dec 2004|11:59am]
[ mood | not mad, but glad! ]

i fell asleep at 1:30 am last night. sooooooo early for me. it was nice! i slept down here and i think bobo was all flustered because we weren't in our normal sleeping habitat, aha. but she slept with me regardless.

last night was a lot of fun. tim and christa and i went to the manchester mall and i bought a dark green top-ish hat that was only $7. then we went to "death hill" as christa calls it and we saw a car there and we thought the kiddies were making out, but we saw them sledding on the hill and tim started to do donuts and the kids DROPPED down, like we couldn't see them! they just layed there like logs in the middle of the hill--black against white. christa almost pissed her pants. then we left and came back and they were nowhere to be seen but there car was still in plain view. then we left and went to cumbies and came back again and they were gone. poop. then we went to super walmart and bought saucers (to sled on) and a flashlight and we went sledding. christa's clogs kept falling off. i found two mismatched gloves there and wore them and tim had 2 other pair in his car. it wasn't even that cold out though.

then i came home and couldn't get the garage doors to open but i found our spare key and got inside. i ate cuz i hadn't hardly at all all day, and drank some cranberry juice. i talked to some people for a bit but then layed down cuz i had cramps and ended up falling asleep, aha. i checked my away message at 5 am, but then went right back to bed. i could still sleep more now, but i wanna stay up. i hope i don't have cramps today. but i'm really really glad that i got out of the house last night afterall. i would have just sat around feeling sick and sorry for myself.

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i am the hawk, there's blood on my feathers. [27 Dec 2004|03:03am]
[ mood | crappy ]

the internet disconnected, so i'm writing this on notepad.

christmas was good, i got a lot of nice stuff. i don't really feel like writing it all out, so if you wanna know just ask, ha. i hope to go shopping tomorrow with pam, and before [or after] that we're gonna visit caitlin. it'll be really nice to see her, i haven't in so long. i just hope the weather permits it. tuesday i think lauren mentioned hanging out with kendra, but we don't know if she can yet, so i guess we'll see. wednesday hopefully me and amir can hang out. thursday it'd be nice to hang out with gretchen if possible, i miss her. friday is new years eve and i'm not exactly sure what's going down yet. no idea for the weekend.... it's so weird that everyones vacation is over after that, but i don't really have a vacation. i mean, kinda, since i don't work a lot this week, but not really.

i should go to the doctors sometime this week. in some ways i don't wanna go cuz the pain isn't constant, and then i think it's getting better, but it comes back. i hate feeling like this, it bring back bad memories. and what if it's all in my head? in a lot of ways i hope it is, but i don't think it is... deep down. i keep having sexual dreams, so today that led me to think maybe i'm driving myself insane with sexual frustration, but that would just be really pathetic.

so i guess my cousin-on law theresa is having a baby and my cousin kelsey is engaged. my grandpa (dad's side) is in the hospital, he had a stroke... but he's doing well i guess.

i don't wanna go to bed. maybe i'll try to stay up all night and when i finally can't stay up anymore it'll most likely be light out.

i hate feeling this way. i haven't written in awhile though, so i know this is gonna be long. i feel like such a giant hypocrite right now, but in the scheme of things, does it matter? i can't stop biting my lip. i can't stop thinking.

last night in my dream i worked at suncoast at the mall. my job was to put dvds away, and the cases were really thin and went under the normal sized display cases in a certain order. i kept messing up so they fired me. somehow i was in a lake paddling myself in a boat. someone who was swimming tried to crawl in, a guy, and tipped me over, and his friends came after me in a motor-boat. all of a sudden the water was shallow, but not shallow enough to walk in, but too shallow to swim in. and i was wearing an old-fashion black bathing suit. they chased me to this woodsy island and one of the kids got out and we had sex in the woods. then after we swam to a waterfall and i told him it didn't mean anything and he smiled and helped me out of the water. then we went to walmart, and i don't remember anything else. weird, huh?

today i did absolutely nothing. i sat at home online and drank water and ate and talked to amir and some other people. that's it. i have cabin fever. i NEED to get out of my house. tomorrow will be good for me, it'll be nice to hang out with pam alone (eh heh heh). bah, my nail chipped. i dunno, i just wanna be good, i don't wanna hurt people or make them think too much. but i also don't wanna have to think a lot myself.

i want to watch the sun rise, about 3 more hours.
whoopie.

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[26 Dec 2004|01:32am]
[ mood | STOMACH ]

Fortune Cookie from Today:
"Now is the time to try something new."
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christmas eve and bobo! [24 Dec 2004|09:30pm]
[ mood | sting ]

the fun never stops!Collapse )

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